INDIA182: Day 47 debrief. . .

I didn’t feel really well today again. I was feeling a lot better the day before but for some reason, the wrenching feeling in my stomach had come back to haunt me. Today was the day that I was suppose to book my ticket and pack for the next location. I kept questioning God why this was happening to me. I was quite frustrated in the morning because I also was asked to lead worship for the last day I was here. I did not feel it all. But I prepared anyways and remembered God’s grace. I continued to push through and worship was one of the best times I’ve had in a while. It was an amazing experience where the Holy Spirit was so present, the worship ended with a simultaneous silence that lasted for almost a couple of minutes from of the awe of His presence.
I was thanking the Lord for such an amazing time though reality started creeping in again for my stomach.
I headed out anyways with psalms 62 in my mind. The Lord had given it to me through out the week of sickness. The main message I got from the chapter was to trust in God’s strength and to find rest in Him alone.
When I came back from gathering the ticket for tonight to Chennai, I couldnt help at the base so I ended up back at the house feeling so desperate and confused and frustrated.
That’s when I knelt down and confronted God. I knew that God was holding me back from leaving but I didnt know why. I again prayed and gave my trust in His strength and told Him I really needed Him right now.
That’s when I found out the 2 chapters I didn’t read for this location that I would read out for every location that I would arrive in which was given from God. Isaiah 58 & 62.
I read them out, and the pain stopped.
God’s grace is sufficient enough for me.

‘Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.’

Isaiah 40:30-31

Thank you guys for your encouragements and prayers for this week of trial and refining for me as lessons were learned and relationships were tested. God is good!! (: all the time. I’ll be heading out to Chennai tonight so do please pray for safe travels and just good rest on the way! God has given me even a greater heart when I see the ugly sides of India. I pray that God will continue to rock my world and show me is His glory here!!

Much love from India!!

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