I didn’t feel really well today again. I was feeling a lot better the day before but for some reason, the wrenching feeling in my stomach had come back to haunt me. Today was the day that I was suppose to book my ticket and pack for the next location. I kept questioning God why this was happening to me. I was quite frustrated in the morning because I also was asked to lead worship for the last day I was here. I did not feel it all. But I prepared anyways and remembered God’s grace. I continued to push through and worship was one of the best times I’ve had in a while. It was an amazing experience where the Holy Spirit was so present, the worship ended with a simultaneous silence that lasted for almost a couple of minutes from of the awe of His presence.
I was thanking the Lord for such an amazing time though reality started creeping in again for my stomach.
I headed out anyways with psalms 62 in my mind. The Lord had given it to me through out the week of sickness. The main message I got from the chapter was to trust in God’s strength and to find rest in Him alone.
When I came back from gathering the ticket for tonight to Chennai, I couldnt help at the base so I ended up back at the house feeling so desperate and confused and frustrated.
That’s when I knelt down and confronted God. I knew that God was holding me back from leaving but I didnt know why. I again prayed and gave my trust in His strength and told Him I really needed Him right now.
That’s when I found out the 2 chapters I didn’t read for this location that I would read out for every location that I would arrive in which was given from God. Isaiah 58 & 62.
I read them out, and the pain stopped.
God’s grace is sufficient enough for me.
‘Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.’
Thank you guys for your encouragements and prayers for this week of trial and refining for me as lessons were learned and relationships were tested. God is good!! (: all the time. I’ll be heading out to Chennai tonight so do please pray for safe travels and just good rest on the way! God has given me even a greater heart when I see the ugly sides of India. I pray that God will continue to rock my world and show me is His glory here!!
Much love from India!!